During our Journey through the world of shapes and forms, we are often under the effect of our daily disappointments, as our “sandcastles come tumbling down,” and we ask ourselves the question: ”What am I doing here?”
In a narrow sense it may mean: ”What am I doing in this situation?” or ”What am I doing in these relationships? In a broader sense the meaning can be: ”What am I doing in this life, what is the sense of life, what is my ultimate goal ? Why was I born onto this Earth?”
The socially conditioned mind is ready with the answer to all those questions, provides a detailed description and explanation, underpinned with scientific arguments. It tells us and analyses our own personal histories, starting with birth and ending with death. Between the tangible endpoints, the already and the yet, every single conscious moment of our life is embedded int he story as experience.
Every such personal history, however, has its own problems and conflicts, beauties, ups and downs, and questions awaiting answers. One of the central questions in almost every autobiography is the following:
- How could I achieve more in life in order to be happy?
- What is my true nature?
- What is the capital that I had when I was born and that has stayed with me since the moment when I realized that I existed?
- How did I acquire this bodily structure, together with the vitality and Consciousness that gives me the sense of Presence?
- How long is it going to last?
- What had I been before this body was born, and what am I going to be when this body decomposes?
- Who was born, and who is going to die?
- Who am I?
The only answer to these questions is that the capital with which we were born and which stays with us is the concept of ”I am here, I am now,” the intuitive feeling and reality of ”I am.” It is only possible to experience that in the Present moment, in the Now.
Past is an intangible part of our personal history, and future is the expectations we project into it. Both are products of the mind, therefore illusory, false, not realistic things.